Sunday, September 28, 2008,
8:10 PM
Time now is 2011 hrs
I didn't do much today. I just stayed at home and rest and think about what I want in life. This is the question that have been bothering me for quite some time. I think I am flicking minded. Because to other it is such a easy question but to me it is so difficult to answer.
I missed alot of my old friends today. How are they now? How is their life going about? What are they doing now? The friends that gave me so many memories. Some of which played in band with me. Some of them were beside me to share my happiness and sorrows. Yeah nothing in this world will last forever. All of us will be separated as time goes by. But I am glad that all of you left a footstep in my life which make my life so different.
I just finished watching a movie. 10 Promises To My Dog. Touching story. Really. Watch until tears come out already. You know something? Sometime when we promise each other things, did we lift up to what we promised? Yes we can give 101 of excuses and reasons why we didn't keep to the promise. but to the person you make the promise to, the promise can be so important.
Watching this movie also make me missed my dad. 13 years since he left... How are you in the heaven? I never forget you and never will... ,
12:17 AM
Time now is 28-09-08 0018hrs.
So what happened today?
I was so tired that I couldn't really wake up at all. Really very tired. I sleep from my bedroom to the sofa of my living room. Just sleep and sleep until 1pm. Yeah I am really very tired. Stress and long hours of work and activities giving lesser time to rest. Maybe I am so used to free time at home and do my own stuffs. Now I can't really do that. Even on saturday and sunday. But I never regret living my life this way. Because I know I need to catch up the time and knowledge and the stuffs that I have lost in the past. I got push through everything.
At church service just now. I was not paying attention to pastor. The reason being something happened at stuffing at KK and they cannot process the portnet to bring the container into the port. I was quite panic because I couldn't answer the call and I have to sms alot of people on resolving this people. Just that the service ended, I quickly ran to a corner and check the whole issue out. I am glad when I call back everything had settled.
However when I am done and get back to the CG, I only found my belonging there... Where are the rest of the group??? Although at the end i still managed to find them, but that is after me looking high and low for them. I think they meant alot to me that I felt so lost when I couldn't see them. Haha.. Lucky Winnie answered the call and I ran and catch with them.
Thank you Winnie. Luckily you are there to help us book seats. Luckily you were there that I didn't have to do it alone and share your music with me. Wanna let you know that I appreciate that especially when I have gone through a week of stress and war fighting. It is so good to have you around me. Going to start school soon right? You must jia you wor... And I know you will be the best of the best.
After the Service, I rushed down to Jurong East and meet up with my coursemate and discussed the Air Freight Project. not knowing that they have chosen me to head the group. We immediately go into the topic and that with everyone expressing the ideas I am going to consolidate everything together tonight. Hopefully I can drop them the email tonight and they give me more suggestion for me to improve on it.
Headed back to meet Xue Ting, Li Xin, Winnie and Shannon. Long time never step into the arcade already. Yeah long time... And as usual they take photo again. Haha... Seem that it is our CG's tradition to take photo everywhere we go. That is a good thing because that is the evidences of the good and happy times when we are together. I wanna say that I cherish it. Though I don't know whether I will be with all of you forever, but thank you for lighten up my life. Friday, September 26, 2008,
10:44 PM
Time now is 2245hrs.
Today have been a busy day.
I took a cab this morning because i suddenly wanted to be in office slightly early this morning. But the outcome is if I have taken MRT I will be faster than the cab. Why? We were stuck in a traffic jam at AYE. I was asking the driver to exit Clementi Road to skip the remaining part of the jam. As a driver myself I know it definately can be done but he simply say he can't without trying. When we reached my office, I didn't have enough cash and used my atm card. Something wrong somewhere and he simply cannot make deduction and keep blaming me on my card spolit his machine. I am so unhappy with him already and he still say this. My card is totally new card. So I didn't want to argue with him and I went up to the atm machine and draw money payment. So the beginning of my day is already spolited by this driver. I left home at 0745hrs and reached office at 0905hrs. I might as well take MRT!!
Back in the office today. Rushing everything out before I go home at 1300hrs. I cleared all my bill for new shipment and Yang Ling and Yue sheng to key in my document and prepared Disposal Documents. I couldn't take any booking today. but luckily my customer are supportive and they make booking with me themselves. At 1300hrs, I took everything I need to take left office and I went over to Taman Jurong and delivered a document to one of the customer before I headed home.
Reached home and at 1745hrs, I left home and went over to church for combined CG. This is a Youth CG. Dun know leh.. Trying to blend through the whole event.Am I look very old?? hahaha... Maybe... BUt I don't really bothered about it. As long I enjoy it can already.
Think about my work. Thinking the crisis that my company currently going through. I want to help to bring more sales for my company and I have proceed with my plan today. I will be doing purely on Customer services and operation during office hours. All BL Draft, Permit and Letter of indemnity will be done at night or before office hours or at home. One more thing that I will need is a good Laptop. My desktop is getting old and have temper. Sometime nothing happen, sometime simply don't let me do anything.
Hopefully through this planning I will be able to bring in more booking for the company.
Tomorrow morning I will be going back to office to clear my filing and do new bookings. in afternoon I will be at church for service and in the evening I will have to meet up with my project group members... gonna be busy again.... Thursday, September 25, 2008,
11:35 PM
Time now is 2335hrs.
Today is really a busy day. The reason is because Yang Ling wasn't around and Yue Sheng is very busy at his own import stuffs. Sometime it really happen in this way. When you are not busy, nothing come to you. Once you get busy, everything start to come to you.
Today we managed to complete the whole Transaction for G2K. The person actually wanted me to send a copy of the Indemnity to him. But sorry lor... If I send to you doesn't that mean you can use my indemnity and do submission of LTA without making any payment? But one good thing is he came up to the office and make full payment and I manage to release the whole of document to him. He will have one more special project coming up but for that I leave it to my boss to handle him.
What about the Booking today? New booking added in was GM's Paramaribo and Vladivostok. I will be continuously check whether Jose have more booking for me. Meanwhile Pinnacle also booked Paramaribo and ND started with Novorossiysk. I need to check with KK whether the booking for Point Lisas and Port Moresby is confirmed and SC booking for Vladivostok. Tomorrow I must work even harder. If I want 20 containers per weeks for next month, I got to think and think on how to do it without disturb my work in documentation.
I was talking to MH when we were having lunch just now. I asked her in what way that we can do something to make the situation better. She kept saying there is not much we can do but just do our work well. but I feel that it is not good enough. The business wouldn't grow further. I feel that I need to assist the sales to bring in more business. Yes I may not earn the commission but it will benefit me one way or another too.
Tomorrow I have decided to claim my Off- IN- Lieu in the afternoon. Tomorrow will be the combined CG thingy at Church. I guess it will be fun..
Better sleep early, tomorrow is waiting for me to create history.... Wednesday, September 24, 2008,
10:19 PM
Time now is 2210hrs
Thanks winnie for designing my blog.
I know I must be very demanding because I keep giving critics on the design and asked her to change and change. At the end of the day, This blog finally have a new face.
So what happened today. I look for booking and called everyone that I know again.
Nowadays business is definately not easy. Everyone in company is trying to do something. I was trying to find the rate for the shipment for various ports and that hopefully we can do more shipment. That is the least I can do beside my operation duties.
I should say.. I am tired... But not weekend yet so I must carry on fighting for more shipments. I still dun want to give up...
Next month target will be 80 containers which mean that I need to get 20 containers or equivalent per week. Don't know possible or not. But if you never try you never know. ,
5:47 PM
DONE! AT LAST DONE LIAOS!
HOW IS IT?
NOT BAD RIGHT?
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1:11 AM
Time now is 0115hrs.
Rarely that I will sleep so late in the weekdays. Maybe I drink too much coffee in the afternoon. Or is it because I am too stressed up that I cannot sleep?
I heard a news that is quite shocking today. My company's HQ in Hong Kong have make some strategy changes in the routing of the vessels. And the thing is they have diverted all vessel to call at Port Kelang instead of Singapore. That mean there may be an retrenchment going to happened. Although my side is not really going to be affected by the retrenchment, but it is going to affect business.
I have not thought of retrenchment can be so real to me. Now that I see it happening, it is scary one lor. I think the coming week we will heard more news about this. i believe our director will be speaking to us soon.
So all my friends reading this blog...
If I go out of job, please help me look for another job lor... Monday, September 22, 2008,
11:52 PM
Time now is 2353hrs.
I am very tired today. And I really have the intention to skip work and skip lesson and skip everything for coming rest of the week. But can I or will I do so? No...
There is so many expectation that I need to lift on my back.
Really sianz... Fed up... Irritated... depressed...
But that mean I give up? No...
So what to do? Work Harder I guess... Sunday, September 21, 2008,
6:05 PM
Time now is 1815hrs.
Just came from back a whole day studying and doing project.
I was at Jurong East Library this morning and met up with my coursemate for the group project discussion. Gone through the project for Airfreight but seem that no one is actually ready for the project. Maybe I am abit concerned on this and wish that the project can be done quickly. Hope that we can come up with something concrete on wednesday evening.
Later on, I met with Kenneth, Eve, Adeline and her friend to study together. Kenneth is giving her some tution while I take care of the airfreight module or which the tutorial was never touched on. But don't know why, after 2 hours, I can get the whole thing into my mind already. Maybe because I slept too late and wake up very early this morning.
For the past one week. I felt frustrated. But why? I don't know also. And the more frustrated I am I tried to stop myself to say something hurtful to people. I noticed that this was what I did for the past few days to my colleagues, my friends and even my church friends. But the frustration have no where to go for now. Maybe my attitude problem is coming back again.
I feel depressed too... Haha... I really feel that sometime I don't belong to anywhere and I am just drifting here and there... Friday, September 19, 2008,
11:38 PM
Time now is 2115hrs.
I just came back from a full day of church activities.
At Service today, Pastor Kong spoken to us about the 5 qualities that Son of God should have.
1. A son carries the genetic code of the house.
2. A son serves the vision of the house.
3. A son share the pride in their house.
4. A son accept discipline in the house.
5. A son give birth to children.
All Pastor Kong spoken set me thinking about my christian life with our lord. Did I carries the genetic of the house? Do I serve the vision of the house? Do I share the pride of the house? Did follow the rules of our lord? And will I be able to help to expand the church by bringing more new friends to the church? so at the end of the service today, I am really full of thought in mind.
After the whole service, Mingyao sms me whether I should join the security ministry first. I did not hesitated and say yes. I always think in this way. Even though I wish to contribute on things that I know and but if there is a ministry that need help and I am available, I will be there to help. And also... I shouldn't choose what to serve. Haha.. That is my principle in this issue. So I will wait for Mingyao reply and follow instructions and go for it.
There is currently 4 issue that is running through my life.
Firstly is my career with Zim Logistics S.E.A Pte Ltd.
Secondly is my dream as a musician.
Thirdly my diploma course.
Fourthly and most importantly, walking and following my lord.
There is alot of contradicating things going on. And I have to balance everything. Career is important because I want to be successful in what I do and in way, repay the company with more business for the company. As musician, it have my passion all along and music really accompanied me when I am all alone. In music i express things that I couldn't express in real life. The second chance in studying again and I don't wat to regret.. I want to be the top scholar and that I will be able to go And being a christian, I want to live house of god. Doing all these at the same time is really not easy. Things tend to crash together sometime. I pray really hard that I can make decision at doing the correct things at the correct time.
Kambate Kambate Kambate ,
11:38 PM
COLOR OF THE WIND SANG BY VANESSA WILLIAM
You think you own whatever land you land on
The earth is just a dead thing you can claim
But I know evry rock and tree and creature
Has a life, has a spirit, has a name
You think the only people who are people
Are the people who look and think like you
But if you walk the footsteps of a stranger
You'll learn things you never knew you never knew
Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or asked the grinning bobcat why he grinned ?
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain ?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind ?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind ?
Come run the hidden pine trails of the forest
Come taste the sun-sweet berries of the earth
Come roll in all the riches all around you
And for once, never wonder what theyre worth
The rainstorm and the river are my brothers
The heron and the otter are my friends
And we are all connected to each other
In a circle, in a hoop that never ends
Have you ever heard the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
Or let the eagle tell you there hes been
Can you sing with all the voices of the mountain ?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind ?
Can you paint with all the colors of the wind ?
How high does the sycamore grow ?
If you cut it down, then you'll never know
And you'll never hear the wolf cry to the blue corn moon
For whether we are white or copper-skinned
We just sing with all the voices of the mountain
Need to paint with all the colors of the wind
You can own the earth and still
All youll own is earth until
You can paint with all colors of the wind ,
11:38 PM
Time now is 2330hrs.
Finally it is friday. I have been checking up on my work loading. For the half month I have yet to on my booking load list. So I started to tally up whatever bookng that I have in hand for the month of Sept.
Before going further, I need to explain two freight terms. Well let me practice what I have learnt in class. In the Incoterm, there is these term that we are most popular use in my type of shipments. The first one will be Cover Insurance Freight (CIF) which is mean shipper will be responsible for Freight charges and may have to purchase insurance for the shipment under the agreement of the contract. I guess forwarders will love this type of booking as there is more revenues involved. The second one is Free On Board (FOB). As the term suggested, the cargo can shipped on board the vessel without the shipper paying for the ocean freight. The nominated Carrier will in turn collect the Ocean Freight from the consignee or buyer at the destination. Then for us at the local, there is really nothing for us to earn except for some stuffing charges.
Back to where left out, I input all the bookings and did some calculation. I have about 55% of FOB shipment on hands. Which mean that booking didn't really fetch alot of revenue. I guess I have to try to fetch more CIF booking from customer as well. Meantime for FOB booking, I cannot let go as well. Because it at least give us the edge that we can keep the volume of cargo moving. I guess I have to work double harder on monday.
i wondered why consignee are so into the FOB term. The most likely reason that I can think of currently is that consignee may not trust shipper in the way that shipper might have take chance to mark up the Ocean freight to their buyer and in term gain more profits. These shipper really got people into trouble lor.
Tomorrow will be CG and service day for me. I have reserved my whole day the event tomorrow. Better go and sleep liao... Thursday, September 18, 2008,
11:22 PM
Time now is 2315hrs.
I just came back from work and study.
Let me think what should I update.
CNL Concert finally have the concert on 13-09-08. I was so happy and glad that some of the Cell Group friends were able to attend the concert and give me some much needed support. Yeah... I was actually quite nervous and wondered whether I can last through the whole concert. Furthermore I am very tired from hectic schedule of the whole day and I couldn't concentrate during the rehearsal and thus my confidence level is low. So it started with March Blue sky and goes on. When Wind Ensemble played Armenian Dance by Dr Alfred Reed, I just want to do it the best than previously done. Yeah my wish came true because I think I do very well for this piece.
What will be going on for CNL Wind Ensemble after this concert? I am waiting for the end of the break and go back to prepare the performances. Yeah I look forward to that. I know I am a Music Maker and I will want the music we played to go beyond sound and into meaningful and colourful scenery in everyone hearts.
While everything goes well for Concert, things are not going too smoothly at work. This week have been a very irritating week. I am trying to do what I can. But things just didn't workout. Frankly speaking, I am very disheartened and wanted to go on leave for awhile. I suddenly thought it will be so good if I can go Genting again. I just want to be alone and think for awhile.
For study, I will be meeting up with my group members to complete the two project at hand. I have to think about the ideas before the meeting. Hopeful we can come up the idea and complete the project as soon as possible. Meanwhile I better do my study on sunday after the group meeting.
Going to sleep already. Last working day of the week, do my best bah... Saturday, September 13, 2008,
2:08 PM
Time now is 1412hrs.
I was more forced to come back to office to settle some work issue.
sometime I really think my boss really something wrong lor. I passed the Original Letter to him and he don't want to keep and make me come back to office to courier out to Trinidad?? Hey today is saturday and that I got perform on concert later. Sianz lor... And this cause me to miss out the Make up Cell group meeting.
Haven't buy my shirt yet. And i am stuck at office now. Hopefully that DHL can come over quickly or I will be late for the concert rehearsal. Aiyo can things don't work in this way? i am already under so pressure already still like that.
Meanwhile, how do I feel now for concert? Panic? no? Maybe I am not taking it that seriously. Haha... Hope that everything will be fine later. And of cos... Thanks S33... I recieved all your sms this morning and I will do my best.
I will keep the blog updated on the concert later when I come home. Friday, September 12, 2008,
11:41 PM
Saw this at a friend's blog... And nothing to do now.. Lol...
10 to 1
TENS Whats:
1. What was the first thing you thought about when you woke up?
What time is it?
2. What did you do last night?
Channel New Asia
3. What is the most important of your life?
Music, Friends, Foods...
4. What would you rather be doing right now?
Well nothing to do now.. So blogging
5. What did you last cry over?
When I am lost in my life?? Think so...
6. What always makes you feel better when you’re upset?
Go Seaside and be alone on my own...
8. What’s the most important thing you look for in a significant other?
True love and affections
9. What are you worried about?
Career, study and Band
10. What are you looking forward to most in this week?
Concert on Saturday and Sunday Service
NINE HAVE YOU’S:
1. Have you ever liked someone while you had a girlfriend/boyfriend?
Yes... Think so
2. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes someone have broke my heart before. Luckily not smashed
3. Have you ever lost and all alone?
Yes. in LA Disneyland when I was Sec 3.
4. Have you ever been out of the country?
Yes. Been to LA, Seoul , Bangkok, Batam, KL, Brisbane, Sydney Taipei...
5. Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
Yeah when I tell someone that there is a swimming pool in Zim Vessel and no one believe.
6. Have you ever been back stabbed by a friend?
Yes... But nevermind lah... I still take him as friend
7. Have you ever had the cops called on you?
When I was in a pub and they came and check for underaged.
8. Have you ever dated someone younger than you?
Yeah.
9. Have you ever read an entire book in one day?
Yeah... Chicken Soup for the Soul Book 3 when I was on duty for AHM 04 while in NS.
EIGHT WHO’S:
1. Who was the last person you saw?
My uncle
2. Who was the last person you kissed?
...
3. Who was the last person you texted?
Li xin.. Regarding changing of time slot for Make up Cell group
4. Who was the last person to call you?
MINDEF notification system...
5. Who was your first crush?
Yes.. but she is one of my best friend now.
6. Who is the last person who texted to?
Li xin... To tell me the confirmed location and time for Make up Cell Gourp.
7.Who is the last person you freaked out on?
So far dun have...
8. Who did you last hug?
My guitar
SEVEN WHEN’S:
1.When was your last shower?
2 hours ago
2. When did you last see your mom?
2 day ago
3. When was your last time u saw your dad?
13 years ago... He passed away when I was 13......
4. When did you last dress up?
Hmm.. morning??
5. When was the last time you cried?
one month ago
6. When did you last go to the movies and with who?
Can't remember...
7. When did you last listen to music?
On the bus just now.
SIX WHERE’S:
1. Where does your best friend live?
Which one are you refering to? Jurong West one or bukit Batok one?
2. Where did you last go?
No. 60 Alexandra Terrace, The Comtech Lobby B, #06-07
3. Where did you last hang out?
Long John Silver at Jurong Point.
4. Where do you go to school?
At Bukit Merah Central (Old HDB HQ).
5. Where is your favorite place to be?
Boat Quay coffeebean
6. Where did you sleep last night?
My room
FIVE DO’S/DOES:
1. Do you like someone right now?
Yes but not going to do anything about it.
2. Do they like you too?
Dun know.. Maybe yes, maybe no
3. Do you ever wish you were someone else?
Yeah sometime.
4. Do you know the muffin man?
Muffin man? dun understand...
5. Does the future scare you?
Future dun scare me... Uncertainty does.
FOUR WHY’S:
1. Why are you best friends with your best friend?
Because we were there for each other.
2. Why did you get a myspace?
It come together with MSN
3. Why did your parents give you the name you have?
To be under the witness of Sun and Moon, and shine brightly.
4. Why are you doing this survey?
Cos look interesting
THREE IF’S:
1. If you could have one superpower, what would it be?
Go back in time and change something
2. If you could go back in time and change one thing, would you?
Yes.. Things that I have regretted.
3. If you were stranded on a deserted island and could bring one thing what would it be?
My Mp3.
TWO WOULD-YOU-EVER’S:
1. Would you ever get back together with any of your ex’s if they asked you?
I dun know.
2. Would you ever shave your head to save someone you love?
nope.
ONE LAST QUESTION:
1. Are you happy with your life right now?
Yeah... fight on to be the best finisher in the marketplace... ,
11:15 PM
Time now is 2316hrs
In another 21 hours times I will be performing at ACS Barker with Centre Of New Life Church Wind Ensemble. This will be the first time after 3 years since I last performed on tuba to the public. And yes time had gone by so fast and my ideas and thinkings of music have changed. No longer am I the person who put in and serious about music. I am now just enjoying the every single minute and second of the music I played and listen to the story of each of them.
We will be playing Armenian Dances (Part 1) by Dr Alfred Reed and Vaughan's English Folk Song Suite. Although I am no stranger to these two music as I have even performed with CNL a few years back, the music this time bring me a new ideas. My intepretation of the music is different this time.
I suddenly hope that all my friends could be able to attend this concert and that able to share my happiness with me again. But I guess none of them will be able to be free for the concert this time round. Nevermind. i will just play the music as per what it should been done. And yeah I hope that the music the band play will be able to move the audiences.
Music is meant to touch the heart of one who hear it. Every music tell a story and every instrument is the bits and pieces of the whole picture.
Tomorrow I will be going for the makeup cell group as I wasn't able to attend due to study committment. And before that I need to get a dark blue shirt and after Cell Group I need to rush home and change and go to the concert venue and get ready for rehearsal. At 7.40pm the concert should officially start and end before 10pm. I don't think I will be following the guys back to Henderson to unload the instruments but instead I will just go home or go somewhere and have a drink.
On sunday morning I will have Service and after that, I better study and prepare for my project.
Not enough time to do my things already... Can I be greedy and have 48 hours on my own??
Lol.. I know I can't so the only things I can do is cherish and cherish the time I have. Thursday, September 11, 2008,
11:59 PM
Today is 12-09-08 and time now is 0000 hrs
Been about two weeks that I didn't blogged. Therefore thought that since I am online I should update alittle of what is going on in my life.
On 31-08-08, Chak Kwang, Chay Hai and his Gf Jennifer as well as myself went for the SMRT challenge. Yeah it have been one long year since we participated in the Little Red Dots. This time round instead of staying indoor, we have to run outside and look for clue and resolve problem. not a easy game to play but I enjoyed the game.
After the SMRT Challenge, I went over to Sentosa and meet up with S33. They were there in the morning. Played some volleyball game with them and before that rented a bicycle even though I dun really know how to cycle, but I thought it will be fun so I just rent it for an hour and cycle around.
While I was in Sentosa, Colin called me and asked me to come back to CNL to perform for concert. I was so overjoyed because this was what I hope for and that it gave me the chance to go back to band and play again. However, I didn't played for 3 years and I only have 3 rehearsal to concert. On 3 Sep 08, my first practice with the band, I prayed very hard that I will be able to play the music and with god's grace, the miracle really happened. I can still play on the tuba. The second rehearsal saw me sightreading all the scores and the last rehearsal last night I just enjoy myself and told myself that just do whatever I can and everything gonna be alright. I know god will plan and I will execute exactly what he want.
Beside Band issue that is happening over last two weeks, Work and study had also become more and more demanding. There is alot of stress going on in all these area. But this idea have always appeared in my mind - Nothing is Impossible. So I am just going to think and push these all through. And at the end of the year I will reward myself with a trip to Taiwan (hope so).
Going to sleep now. Got to fight for my life again tomorrow.