Friday, October 31, 2008,
1:33 PM
Time now is 1333hrs.
I am right here at Kuala Lumpur, Malaysia.
I am supposed to attend a friend wedding dinner. Haha.. Didn't seen her for sometime and I wonder how is she. Should be busy preparing herself now.
I left Singapore this morning at 8am and it was a smooth journey all the way to KL. There was some passing rain but nope it didn't stop us from reaching the destination earlier. I was expecting myself to reach KL at 1400hrs but I was one hour early and here I am updating my blog at Sungei Wang Shopping Centre at the Internet shop that I visited the other time.
My schedule for today will be visiting Pasar Rakyat bus terminal after this. So that I wouldn't be lost at the most critical moment that is to board the bus home to Singapore. Maybe if there is still time, I will go and visit the Twin Tower also.
I am supposed to reach my friend's place for her wedding dinner at 1900hrs. So I guess I should get myself ready by 1800hrs and perhap get a cab down to her place.. Hmm... her place is abit dun know where is it... So hopeful that the cab driver will know how to go.
After the Wedding dinner, I will try to visit Chinatown if it is still early and be in bed early so that I wouldn't overslept for tomorrow journey back.
Ok I will update my blog again tomorrrow night when I reach Singapore, attended the Church Service and meet up with my project pals for monday Airfreight Group Project Presentation. Tuesday, October 28, 2008,
1:58 PM
Time now is 1400hrs.
I am updating the blog before I am going out to have rehearsal and attend the audition this evening. And yes I am attending the audition at YMCA building and my audition time is at 2010hrs. Till now I don't know what song I should sing. I have 5 songs in my mind now and will try it out later.
I wonder how things will goes about. I am abit low confident and morale. Because of the choir and Asia Conference auditions of which both I guess failed. Nevertheless, I am going all things behind my head and be myself. I am going to just have fun. If I can get into final, it will be a bonus to me. There is not much chance for me to have fun at my age in term of music. I am not as siao on for Band music like what I did when I am in Poly or Secondary school days.
Yeah I working adult already lor... Must have the adult mindset too. I must think and think and be responsible for consequences. So at the end of the day, I ended up don't have the courage to pursuit what I love and binded by reality.
So I am giving myself a chance to stand at the stage and sing out loud what I think and feels. Sunday, October 26, 2008,
1:46 AM
Time now is 0147hrs.
I am actually feeling very upset for the last one week.
Had a fight at home and injured myself while this happened...
Company have retrenched people...
Alot of cropped up at work...
Project not finished....
Study not doing well...
See two friend in need yet I can't do anything at all to help...
So friends... you see that I am very happy... I am not...
I want to run away like what one of my friend is doing... but will it solve the problem? no...
Yes I am very negative now...
I feel that I want to lock myself up for the next one week at home...
I want to think it over again what I can do and ask god to tell me what I should do...
To one friend,
Can you don't bang your hand at things? And can you dun argue with your mum? Can you cherish your study because it is through your parent that you have a chance to continue to study? Never give up can? And if you remember the bet, I want you to win me.. and of cos I am not going to lose so easily...
To another friend,
If you will ever see this blog, contact us... We love and care for you... Really... Wednesday, October 15, 2008,
8:52 PM
Time now is 2053hrs.
I noticed something about myself recently. I am more and more loosing my cool at work. Am I tired already? I seriously don't know. I just suddenly feel that it is so hopeless to change something by yourself. The whole team are not moving at all. And the only thing I can do is to just stand there and see everything unfolding.
One of the colleague say this about freight collect shipment. Why do I take such a dirty job? To me it is like what do you mean by dirty job? Can I choose my job? They are our customer isn't it? At one hand people say not to let go our customer, and at other hand they are not taking job. They can go home on time, but what about me? Am I not tired? I am like reaching home everyday after 11pm. They say they are very busy. What about me? Based on the number of shipment at my hand, I have nothing to do?
Yeah I feel like quitting. But the more you want me to do that I wouldn't do it.
Sincerely, most of my colleagues have lost my respect to them. There is currently two person that I really respected them. The rest of them is like this phase. "When the King of Beast is missing, Monkey take its place" The company have not direction. It is just floating day after day. And the things wouldn't improve even when the warehouse is up. I don't believe that warehousing can do much because of the economy status now. So how? Just see the company fold up?
I feel so hopeless now... Sunday, October 12, 2008,
10:22 PM
My most recent photo with S33...
Haha... Do I look younger? Definately when join them twice a week. Make me feel younger too.
Lolx.
Saturday, October 11, 2008,
9:11 PM
Time now is 2112hrs.
I just came back from church service today.
Something I am very agreed on what Pastor Kong is that god is the provider when you need supply.
I guess most of Singaporean should know that Singapore is going through the recession now. But the shipping line and freight forwarders, it have already happened since the late first and beginning second quarter of this year. My company have already feel the impact since the beginning of this year. And the Retrenchment have started last week, much more earlier than what is reported in the newspaper. Yes I wanted to take this last quarter of the year seriously so that company will be able to recover some loss for this year. but frankly I didn't expect it will be successful. I believe that our God will look after us at the marketplace and I just go ahead and see what I can do.
I wanted to share this during our cell group meeting last friday. but come to think about it. I think I will make this report at the end of the month when I tallied up the total shipments for October. What I can say now is it is really miracle. The number of containers that I have right now stand at 73 containers. Normal at this time of the month I will only hit 30 containers. But the first week of this month i have already exceeded 30 containers. If you read my previous posting, you wil know that I am targeting 80 containers this month, I think if this bloom carry on, I will be increasing my forecast for this month soon.
I wanna thank God for the care and guidance and His grace in my work. As I promised i will be a good finisher and I will do it. I hope my Lord will continue to give us His Grace and my company to go through this difficult time.
I will be finishing the group project on the air freight as well as my personal project by tomorrow. After that I will really go and concentrate on the study and I must score good result in order to repay the trust from my company. For Sea freight, I am not going to wait for my group member but to give them a guideline on how we can proceed a project.
Tomorrow is Sunday and I am going to make good use of it... Thursday, October 9, 2008,
11:44 PM
Time now is 2345hrs.
Past one week have been busy.
I don't know why..
Business is coming back suddenly for my company.
Very very busy. Haha... but Very very tired too...
My plan for this month is 80 containers. And till today calculation, I am at about 60 containers. That is something that is not in my expectation at all.I am like woah. sure or not. As I was on off in lieu after 3.30pm, my booking still carried on. Really lor... I am very excited and at the same time feel very panic. I don't know whether it will last throughout the last quarter of the year. This October to December is very important for the company.
At the moment, I need to plan to secure back all our customer and resume their confident in us. And at the same time, I need to assist my boss to recapture and build up the shipment to Durban and other Africa and Middle East shipments. I believe in my company that it can become better and I will work on it.
Meanwhile at study I am not doing very well. Things that I should have finished still not completed. The deadline again is pressuring me. I am very worried that things will be able to work out well on the project.
Tomorrow we will be having cell group meeting at Clement's place, which mean that I need to go off on the dot tomorrow. I think I better be in the office early tomorrow morning. I will need to print out all invoices and BLs and settle payment to Carriers.
Actually my heart is not very peaceful right now... Was hoping that I can pray with someone. But I guess it is too late now... Hope that everything will be alright. Wednesday, October 1, 2008,
10:21 PM
Time now is 2222hrs.
Yesterday Winnie and I went to Swensen. Well I actually promised her that if she can passed her Theory Test with one pass I will treat her a meal at Swensen. And yes she did it with one pass. So yeah the treat was on me. Had a good meal there.
Well before that in office my boss finally announced to us about the retrenchment in our company. And yeah I am stressed now. but no one in my family knows about it. Perhap I don't want them to worry to. This will be the first time this term retrenchment is so near to me. There are already some news that certain people are going to be axed and it will be make known to them tomorrow.
I feeling very heavy burden at my back. At one point I need to concentrate on my study and another point I need to worry about the sales of my company and my rice bowl. Actually I wanted to talk to Chak Kwang and Jowell today. In fact for the past few weeks I was looking forward to our friendship day. And yeah we are supposed to celebrate it together. But none of these two friends have taken it seriously. And finally I got really fedup and I just tell them to call it off. If we are not serious about it then we don't do it. That is my principle all along.
I feel so trapped inside myself. Wondering how... Hope that tomorrow will be a better day. 
