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Sunday, November 30, 2008, 6:07 PM

Time now is 1810hrs.
Today is a Sunday and yes finally my examination is over. Have been very busy for the last few weeks.


Where should I start it off?


I finally returned back to office after the one week of training of Dangerous Good Course at Changi Airfreight centre on 17-11-08. I have to face the reality of the fact that I have lost a major customer due to the lost BL issue.

I talked to my General Manager on this issue. And I know my company is really protecting me all the way. But indirectly I feel that i really can't do anything to put things back into the track and that the customer can carry on to ship with us. Losing this customer had a significant impact on me. My morale at work is actually very low right now. Furthermore, I heard from my immediate superior that it will become a legal case. Yeah my heart sink liao. Very hard to put tings back to normal track and I know there is nothing else I can do and leave it to the management level to decide my fate.


Next I will like to blog about the Asia Conference 2008.

Indeed it is a high impact, touching people, transforming nation event. Although I missed alot of the session due to work committment and examination. I still managed to go and attended the few sessions. I remembered that Pastor Kong talking about engaging the marketplace. I have always agreed with this concept because I believe that if you want to engage the society, you need to find them where they can be found and not to wait for them to look for you. At the meantime, we need to the value the principles but be open-minded on people around us.


The speakers are also very outstanding as well.


Benny Hinn really did miracles that night. Although not many people understand why his concept is that way, but I guess I know why after thinking for awhile. Nevertheless, the flow of the Holy-Spirit is so strong than usual. I am at the overflow hall and I can still feel it.


On Sunday finale, it is Mr A R Bernard really that touches me. Yeah with the sermon that he have delivered to us, we wil use it in the marketplace that we are engaging right now. Yeah through life may not be easy, I know that with our God around, things can be changed. I know that I will change and that I will become a good example in office that our God wants us to be.


So Asia conference ended with a high note and that there was alot of celebrities performed for us. People like Liu Geng Hong and JJ Lin. That are also creating impact in the world of entertainments. If they can do it, why can't we do the same in our own marketplace?.


My feel for this conference? I am glad that I was able to attend this occasion and that I have boasted with alot of confidence with what I believed all along.


That all for Asia Conference 2008. And I am look forward to Asia Conference 2010!


On study front, I had my examination on 20 and 27 Nov 2008.

On 20th Nov, I had my sea freight examination. That is don't after how long that I do examination again. I am pressured because I really don't have much time to study. So I just prayed and do whatever I could. It was the same on 27th Nov when I did my Airfreight examination and yeah I believe that I will do well this time.


What about relationship with people?

I will say that I always put my trust on people. I don't like to betray other trust in me and at the same time, I hate people that betrayed my trust. Trust is a valuable element in my life. So when I tell you a secret, it is really a secret wor.


Like someone from the background and not let her know is quite tiring too...

Yeah I like someone... But I don't intend to tell her... Because I don't know what I can provide for her. In relationship I believe that I should be the provider to her and that I must bring her happiness. but I don't know what can I give her. Furthermore, she seem that she ignored my care and concern to her. What can I do? I know she did it on purpose. She know that I like her and she tried to distance herself. But hmm... Beat me to death I also won't admit to her that I like her. Haha... Meanwhile I am also not ready for a relationship.


Woah.. I ended the blogging today... Tomorrow will be the last month of the year... Do my best bah...




Saturday, November 15, 2008, 2:07 AM

Time now is 0208hrs.
Yesterday I finally finished the first of three examination papers.
I was very worried the day before because I missed the one of the most important lesson that was on Radioactive materials. Thought of go home and read up but ended up got so confused.
but yesterday morning was like snap and I know it all somehow. Really miracle...

After the whole thing, I travelled down to Mutsafa to get the white short for today water Baptism. Woah I have a hard time to find the short for my size. Walk around for awhile before find the right one.

Alot of thing to go on tomorrow.. Better go and sleep le...


Thursday, November 13, 2008, 7:45 PM

Time now is 1945hrs...
I have been losing my sleep over the lost BL problem.
I am very tired and tomorrow will be the first paper of exam. I am really down and don't have the strength to take the examination. And because of the Lost BL issue I skipped two of the most important lesson and is very lost in this course.

Miracles must take place for me to pass this exam... And more to score good result....


Tuesday, November 11, 2008, 9:36 PM

Time now is 2140hrs.

Last two days have been attending Dangerous Good Course at the Changi Airfreight Centre. Yeah company ask me to go the course, but this time it only added pressure on me. Now I have three papers to take care of. I am very tired with all of the pressure that is pressing me down.

Meanwhile The lost BL issue still cannot be resolved. I don't know what to do. I cannot sleep properly for the past few nights and I still don't know what to do.

I tried to reduce my pressure by talking to people. Alot of people gave me alot of supports and ask me not to think to much. But none of them can help me at all. No one can help me... So end up my conclusion is telling people about become no purposes.

Yeah sometime I ask myself... Who in my life will really help me when I am in need? But conclusion is I don't have any friend that will really help me in my life. I am very de-moralised now.

I beginning to doubt the values that I always believe in.


Sunday, November 9, 2008, 2:12 AM

Time now is 0213hrs.
Saturday went on as usual. I just sleep and rest at home until it is time for me to go for Church. Tell you something, I was glad I have a friend who will sms me in middle of the night and cheer me up.

Today service really about impacting the marketplace. I feel that god want me to impact the company. Pastor preached about how a town in Argentina have been transformed through the power of god. I wonder am I anointed to bring christianity into my company. I believe god will tell me what to do and I will follow his instruction. But on the whole, I just want to not let anyone down in this company and that if I want to left the company I will leave with no regret.

My problem with the lost BL is still not resolved yet. I don't know what should I do. I remembered that I have sent out the BL. How can it be that they didn't recieved the document?


Friday, November 7, 2008, 7:45 PM

Time now is 1930hrs.
Been very sick recently but something happened and I couldn't take rest since I went to back to work.

Update my trip to KL. Yeah I went to my friend wedding dinner. Very kampong like. All the people there are the neighbours and neigbourhood is not small. It still divided into different zones. So I was lost when I was going there and gosh taxi driver also don't know the way after I give the address to him. Traffic jam in KL is indeed very bad. Everywhere is jam with cars. a 20 mins trip become a 1 hour plus trip.

After I left the wedding dinner, I also went back to the restaurant that my friend is working there. Yeah met Jing Jing there and have chat wih her for awhile. I have not seen her since March trip. Glad she is alright and her work is fine.

The next day when I wake up, I feel something is wrong with me, I was running a fever already with running nose. I was like cannot make it already in the morning. But I forced myself to wake up and ate some breakfast and rushed to the terminal for boarding the bus back to Singapore. Once I went up the bus I started to sleep and wake up occassionally to look at where I was. I reached Tuas checkpoint around 12.30pm and after all custom formalities, I alighted the tour bus near the Raffles Marina Club and get a taxi to church service.

As I promised my friend in church that I will be back to church in time for Prayer session and Service. I am glad I didn't break that. I was there at the church at 2pm sharp, only to find out that none of the cell group members is there yet and that the prayer session is 2.30pm. When I was there I am really floating and my body is shutting down and I keep telling myself that promise must be fulfilled. Went through the prayer session and service. At the end of the service I am already want to fainted. But still cannot go home.

Due the submission date of the project is monday, after service I have to rush to meet my group members and finalised how the project going to be presented. When I was there in the library, my head is like breaking already. I felt like I want to ram my head at the pillar.

I reached home at 9pm that night and went to find ways and means to do something on my sickness.

So what happened over the week?

Group project for the airfreight project is finally done and alot of efforts is put in and I was very happy that everything is alright. The mark we will leave it to the lecturer to decide. Upcoming due project are Airfreight personal project and Sea Freight group project.

Exam is also coming and my exam date is on 20-11-08 for Sea Freight module and 28-11-08 for Airfreight module. Yeah I am stressed. Because there is alot of revision that I need to do while working. I don't have much time.

At work, everything is in a mess. Seem that there was a lot of backlog that I have to clear and the whole operation department want me to clear them first before taking up new jobs. some of the shipper only wanted me to handle them because I know them and work with them well. I can't do anything but to follow the department instruction.

Making the matter worse, two of the BLs that I send out to customer went missing and that a Banker Guarantee of about 240 thousand USD is needed to furished to the carrier before they will release container to the customer at destination. I talked to my boss and seem that he is not helping me at all and I have to settle everything on my own. Because of this I have lost my sleep for the past few days. Where am I going to find this amount of Banker Guarantee?

Worse still, I am stuck in a management situation, I was last minute notify that I need to go for the Airfreight Dangerous Goods Course at Changi Airfreight Centre on Monday. HR manager say I need to take over my colleague and attend the course. But my manager just called me and want me to return back to the office tomorrow. Now you tell me, If I don't go, there wouldn't be any refund for the course, and if I go back to office, I wouldn't able to make it for lesson as late comer will be refused to entry.

I was supposed to be at Cell Group meeting tonight, but I never go because my flu is still very strong and I don't want to infect anyone in the cell group. Some of my colleagues already claimed that I pass the virus to them. I don't want the same thing happening to the cell group members. but Winnie think that I am stubborn and don't want to go for Cell Group Meeting. She thought that I am dwelling over my own problems. Yes but the main reason is I am sick and I don't want to infect anyone.

No point for me to explain that to her. I have been explaining and explainig to people on things and that I am very tired.


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