Saturday, January 31, 2009, 12:06 AM

Time now is 0007hrs.
Today is the last working day for me before I am going for 14 days long holidays. The last time I was on leave was in Oct 08. This rest is deserving because I have been very much burdened at work. I was at one point taking on 3 person's job. But I was not appreciated by anyone of them. I am starting to think why I worked so hard for the company. Yeah I am too soft-hearted. I should heck care and just live my life peacefully.

On love, I am still very much in state of confusion. I sorted of betrayed my principle, but I don't want to keep it to the end of the world. So ended up I tell her everything on I felt about her. From there I didn't hear anything from her. I guess she wouldn't give me any reply at all. Yeah I think this might be the best way out of it. Silly me... Why am I so frank to her?

Got this feeling that the Nian Gao, Tang Yuan and Yu Sheng will be wasted... But nevermind... let it be bah... Maybe God is letting me to exercise my brain cell and exercise my body by doing shopping.

Announcement!!
I will be on leave from 02-02-09 to 15-02-09 and I will be switching off my phone and that urgent matters please msn me. If it is not urgent, please do not disturb me. I am very tired and confused.

Thursday, January 29, 2009, 8:43 PM

Time now is 2040hrs.

I did something I usually wouldn't do. I called the person that I like and told her I fall in love with her on Tuesday night. I think I am out of mind and furthermore I shouldn't have fallen in love with her. I think she was in the state of shock after I told her that I fallen in love with her. But I don't want to deny that anymore. Whether she will accept my love or not, I leave it to her, because I think my feeling for her is real can already.

Guess what... I was quite sick on wednesday morning and when I reached office, the first thing I did was to go to the Gent and throwout. I actually wanted to go for MC but thought that there will be shipment going on so didn't do that. I endured all the way to the end of the day and went home and faint inside my bedroom. Yes I really fainted inside my bedroom, recovering my conscienciousness only after 11pm. This morning, I was still not feeling well so I decided to just go and see doctor and stay at home.

When I wake up after a nap in the afternoon, I got a shock that the cg reunion dinner is actually scheduled tomorrow instead of sunday. So ended up I wake up and went online to look for any place that I can buy Fried Nian Gao and cooked Tang Yuan instead of cooking them myself. To my dismaym, there isn't anywhere that sell Fried Nian Gao and if I buy Tang Yuan cdooked outside it is going to cost alot.

So decided to cook the Nian Gao and Tang Yuan myself and keep it in fridge and reheat up at Mingyao place tomorrow. The one more thing I need help will be from someone to help me bring down the food from my side to Mingyao's place. But then no one is free at the moment to help. Hopefully someone can lend me a hand later on.

Sunday, January 25, 2009, 4:35 PM

Time now is 1637hrs.

In another 8 more hours we will be usher in the Year Of Ox.

To me Ox is a very hardworking animal. Just look at the rice your eat you will understand why. I think we should the spirit of Ox and though this economic crisis, we will keep on trying and work hard and never give up.

A friend ask me last night. He say why are people so optimistic and positive. I ask him why must be negative. Actually no matter how bad is situation, you cannot stop hoping that things will get better. Because when you stop hoping, it will become hopeless and how are you going to come out of difficulty. If you believe that you can overcome obstacles, you win half of the war against it.

Finally, I have make over my room. Though not as perfect as what I thought, but I guess it is good and different from the previous years. Very tiring... But I managed to complete everything just in time. Haha... Not bad!! Lolx

, 12:01 AM

Time now is 0000hrs.

In another 30 mins, I am going to start my Mission Make Over James' Room in 7 hrs.
Some of you may be wondering what do I mean by that. Ok.. For the past few days I was too busy with my life that I couldn't clear up my stuffs and paint my room. so after some consideration, I decided to do it one night before the Lunar New Year Eve... It gonna be challenging. I am starting at this timing because no one will disturb me and I can concentrate with what I wanna do to make bedroom provided I don't make so much noise.

After 7 hrs I am going to post up new picture of my room to the blog... Though it is a small room, But I am going to make it look nice. Lolx...

Saturday, January 17, 2009, 9:31 PM

Time now is 2130hrs.

I am very depressed...

I am not happy with myself...

I am not happy with work...

I am not happy with my life...

I am not happy with the people around me...

I am so unhappy about work... Why am helping a moron boss in the work? He is someone really not capable to be our boss. During such a downtime, he almost chased away all the customers, have problem with my oversea agents, have problems with the whole team. Horrible lah!! I am very tired... Running around the EPZ... Rushing my work... Still have to take care of my study...
There is so many hyprocitics in my office... please please please... If you want to wear a mask infront of me, then don't appear infront of me... don't smile in front of me and behind shoot me with cold arrow.

In term of spiritual life, it is moving no where for me. I don't know what I want to do. Yes I planned with bible studies and ministry participation. But something is missing. I feel that God have not tell me what I need to do for this year. I feel very lost. I feel that spiritually I am not moved.

I feel that I constantly in anger... I am not a happy person anymore... But I can't show it out. I just keep swallowing it down my stomach. I think people tend to take me for granted. It is always like that. When you worked very hard and the things is successful, no one will praise you. Not even a "Thank You." And when something cropped up, all the fingers is pointed at you.

I am going to go on leave... I am going to off my phone... just go missing...

Glad that she is alright...

Wednesday, January 14, 2009, 12:13 AM

Time now is 1220hrs.
Driving the company van again. Is it good or bad? While it may seem to be good to other, it is not exactly good for me. It mean additional responsibility and extra expenses incurring. So I really don't know whether it is good to drive the van around.

At the same time, I am dealing with work again. I want to let go on forming consol. The fact is when the sales personnel can't even do nothing about it, what else can I do? The question of who am I keep ringing in my head? i want to say I am God's child. But yet there are so many thing that I can't do anything about.

I suddenly felt that I am losing faith in everything. I don't have confident in my work. i don't have the motivation to carry on believe I should, I don't have the courage to declare my love to people. I don't have the strength to go storms and trials.

Can I MIA for two weeks? I am asking myself... Just let me sleep for 2 weeks also good.

...Hopefully she is alright...

Sunday, January 11, 2009, 1:55 AM

Time now is 0200hrs.
After so many months, finally saw Li Xin... Glad that she is alright. Wanted to pass her the card, but in the end, I didn't. It is her birthday and I don't want to make her upset with my card. I know that she have her reason and giving her encouragement as per in my card may not help. Therefore, this card will be frozen for awhile and when time is right then I give it to her.

In my heart, I wish that the adult connect group can have a full attendance prayer conference. That include Li Xin actually. Because she is part of the connect group. I prayed for for it but it may not happen so soon. I don't know after the Appreciation Night will there be any changes for the cell group. i think by right I should be going to adult cell group already, but I don't wish to go yet. Reason being I hope that I can contribute more to the current cg.

Chloe is in TTS. Xue Ting is very worried for her sister. I hope that Chloe is in stable condition and that she will recover soon. Actually I saw she is being escorted out of the service but I never thought that it become so serious that she is warded. She is a strong person and I pray that she will be fine soon. As for Xue Ting, I am worried for her because she didn't rest well, somemore her immune system not strong and will get sick quite easily. Hope that both of them will be in good health in 2009.

06-02-09 is coming. I am turning 27 years old.
What is the anointing that God have given to me?

But one thing that I want to thank God for, will be he have never left me helplessly alone. The past week saw 3 of my colleagues on leave. I have to handle the whole used car section of export. but I am glad that I still managed to do everything to my best ability and that things appeared fine so far.

Friday, January 2, 2009, 12:06 AM

My 2009 Wishes

1. The walk with God in my life
Hope to finish up the remaining chapters of Getting Started and move on other part of Bible study. Being able to spend more time to read my bible and wishes that God through bible will be able to give direction in my life. At the same time, I hope to join the ministry and remained active with the cell group. Why so? because I feel that it is a chance that we can walk this path together and chance don't always come. I cherish the time that we are still in same cell group. I know I wouldn't be in the youth cell group forever and so I cherish the time.

2. Slim Down
Well been talking about it for the past two years. Really want to get it done..

3. Go higher in my career path
I want to move up to do sales and marketing in the year of 2009. Even though it is going to be a year of uncertainity, I want to move up my career into any level and that do something I felt that I am doing much better at. With operation background, I know I can handle everything better.

4. Owning car
That is my dream... I was hoping that I can own a car --Nissan Sunny, Toyota Altis or even Hyundai Matrix... I don't need a big car, but a car that I use when I go out for sales or even help me in my travelling.

4. Getting my tuba and participate in the World Music Contest
I hope that in this year I will be able to purchase my own tuba. I know that in order to join the philharmonic orchestra in church ministry, I need to have own instrument if I wouldn't be able to make it. I hope that I can do it this year. At the same time, participating in the WMC have been in my dream as well.

5. Finishing up my diploma
I hope that 2009 will be a year that I can finish up my diploma course and that I will be able to move further by taking advance diploma. I want to go into getting a degree too. Being through my working life I understand that education is so much important.

6. Travelling and tour.
In 2008, I actually wanted to travel to Taiwan and Australia which was not done due to some factor. I hope that I will do it and that add it into my memories. At the same time, I hope that I can also be a freelance travel and tour blogger. I can blog on the different places that I go and the interesting things that I see.

7. Being in Love
Something I always based on this principle... I hope that my partner is someone I love and love me. Yeah the wish of settling down is there. But i will leave it to God to decide... He will choose the correct one for me.

8. Being happy, helpful in my life
I hope to lead a happy life and that I hope that I can help people within my limit.

Saturday, January 31, 2009, 12:06 AM

Thursday, January 29, 2009, 8:43 PM

Sunday, January 25, 2009, 4:35 PM

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Saturday, January 17, 2009, 9:31 PM

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Saturday, January 31, 2009, 12:06 AM

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Saturday, January 17, 2009, 9:31 PM

Wednesday, January 14, 2009, 12:13 AM

Sunday, January 11, 2009, 1:55 AM

Friday, January 2, 2009, 12:06 AM