Sunday, March 22, 2009,
10:28 PM
Time now is 2230hrs.
I am very tired.. Been rushing project for the past few days.
I am confused.. I wondered what is calling? What is my priority?
I seem to lost my freedom... Everything is not in my control...
But nevermind... Tomorrow is a new week.
I need to form the consol. I want to break record of forming the most consol in one week.
I want my team to be the best for tomorrow Project LC Presentation.
I want to be even more passionate in my music. I still remember I want the world to listen and love music.
Meanwhile, I go and sleep bah.. I know I will do it.
As wave go tough, trust that I will be tougher. My breaking point is still far far away. Sunday, March 8, 2009,
12:04 AM
Time now is 0005hrs.
I accompanied Winnie home after the fellowship just now. I talked to her alot regarding our past and present, about our concern and about things that are important in our earthly and spiritual life. Although she may be very direct at people at times, but she meant well for people.
I suddenly remember this verse that Pastor Kong said when I just came into CHC. Do you know about 80% of the people when they are not happy about something, they wouldn't complain and will walk out? And that only 20% will open their mouth and tell you what they are not happy about?
This bring me down to this part. Our friends love each other. If your friend did something wrong, will you keep quiet and walk away or will you tell him about it? Very often, we tend to protect the friendship by keeping quiet about the fact that our friend did a mistake. But what does your friend feel? He will feel that you are insincere with him. So if we really care, we should chat with him about that. Not confronting your friend, but to let him know what you thought and maybe allow to give him a chance to explain.
Main thing is caring is very important in everyone life. Just imagine that no one cares about you. How will you feel? Same here in friendship, we need to care for each other. Then the friendship within will be strong.
Ok.. Let me update the things that happened this week
Happy Stuff 1
At work, volume of cargo are showing improvement . I getting more booking from my customer and consol shipment are being formed. Praise the Lord!! He really heard my prayer. I prayed for the last one week with this issue inside my prayer. I really hope that this will carry on and that we can have good result in the month of March.
Happy Stuff 2
We celebrated Hui Xian's 25th Birthday on 03-03-09. We went to Sakae sushi for dinner. This is also a first time she officially joined as member in adult fellowship. I hope that the connectgroup can have more such fellowship because we always don't see each at times. Yeah we celebrated her birthday at Clarke Quay in front of Central Shopping mall along Singapore River. Happy Birthday Hui Xian!!
Happy Stuff 3
God is really around me. Yesterday I asked Mingyao about the Tri-union on Father, Son and Holy Spirit. Guess what happened? Today Pastor Tan talked about this and his explaination clear my question. I really can't believe it. The next thing that happened. During Bible study again, the matter Evangelism come out again. God tell me how and who should we outreach to. That have been a question in my mind as well. Thanks Heavenly Father for your words that chased away the haze and brighten up the day.
Concerned stuff 1
Working relationship with colleague got slightly better. But still quite rocky at times. I hope that I will be more sensitive to what will provoke her and work harmony with her. That is something I will continue to pray for.
Concerned stuff 2
Need to talk to a friend about her life. I am worried about her future and that she is short-changing herself. I hope that I can talk to her and that she can change the direction where she is going. I really need God to help me.
Sad incident that happened during the week.
At 8.30pm on 05-03-09, Kelvin (my brother) sms to call him back and it is urgent. After calling him, I came to know that one of my closest relative passed away. It is actually my aunt's husband.
To know why I am so upset, I got to tell you abit of my history. For all information, my father is used to be a fisherman and spent alot of time at sea. When he married my mum, he want almost to his 60s. He was a type of person who run around and usually wouldn't stay at home. Very often my brother and I are being left taken care of by my aunt and her family. I wanted to say all along I am very grateful to them. Though as we grow older, we seldom meet, and even only see each other less than 3 times a year, my aunt and uncle still care alot for us especially when my father passed away when I was 13.
My uncle was diagnosed with cancer last year. The condition was being kept away from us until in May when he no longer can travel down to our place for my grandfather death anniversary. During Chinese New Year this year when we have the chance to see him, I really got a shock and nearly cried. He practically shrinked. He can't move and is bedridden, can't eat... And finally he passed away on Thursday evening at the age of 80.
I pray that as he leave the earthly world, all suffering will be taken away from him and that Heavenly Father will bless him for he is a good man. He may not be a Christian, but I know God love good man. I also pray that my aunt will overcome this grief and that she will be strong and that family will always stay united.
Ok.. Let see what will happen tomorrow.
Morning
--> Call Mingyao on the suggested activity.
--> Meet up Winnie and Adeline and bring the refreshment to Hao Han's place.
Afternoon
--> At Hao Han's place for cg.
--> Down to Punggol for the funeral wake.
Then that it for my weekend.