Tuesday, April 21, 2009,
10:31 PM
Time now is 2231hrs.
I am supposed to do my study now. But then thought may be I can pen a short blog here on how I feel.
I am worried about coming Friday with Vincent Chew whom is our General Manager of my company. I don't know how are we going to tell him that the shipment loading have dropped more than 60% for the month of April. I warned my manager (Richard) about it but nothing is being done.
Why am I so concerned about all these thing? It is just because of a promise that I will help to look after the company. A silent promise to my ex manager and my mentor. That why I am so stressed. I cannot afford to let customer disappeared from the company. Yet I am helpless because things are simply not at my control.
Let hope that the booking can jump to more than 40 FEU coming to the end of the month.
I will want to go for Genting Highland Band Competition in Nov. But there is one condition that I have to fulfil. That is I must attending Saturday afternoon with NYP Alumni Band. But if I do that I wouldn't be able to make for service 2. Playing music for CNL will take me away from cgm on sunday. It is really not easy decision.
So which one should I give up?
Sunday, April 19, 2009,
3:47 PM
歌手：胡歌 , 專輯：出發專輯
烏云然
這一生為誰刻下傷痕
千年的武功豪情劃破長空
夢不斷英雄俠義柔腸
伊人終相伴對酒笑談江山
英雄劍起了風塵
在一望無垠的荒漠心若重生
夢不斷地延伸
誰遙望著故土中原用一生不停地追問
情歸何方曲為誰唱
輕紗隨風難解思念的傷
英雄傷心為誰幾度情長
琴聲不斷與誰今生共賞
音未覺縱馬置身疆場
這一生為誰刻下傷痕
千年的武功豪情劃破長空
夢不斷英雄俠義柔腸
伊人終相伴對酒笑談江山
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11:38 AM
Time now is 1139hrs.
Just wake up from a good sleep. Seem that for very long time I didn't have such a good sleep. For the past few weeks I have been waking up early on sunday to do things, going out for cg and so on. My rest day seem to be busy.
So what will be my plan for today? I am going to concentrate and study for my coming examination for International Trade and Multimodal Transport. The project part I did very well. Now I must also do well in the written so that my efforts will go to waste.
And After the exam, I am going to go back to CNL Wind Ensemble when the practice start on sunday. I will be preparing the concert with for coming August or September. I am looking forward for it. I will be going to be actively in Band scene from now on. Most likely to be guest playing in band again. Saturday, April 18, 2009,
9:46 PM
I felt disappointed today.
You know why?
Here goes the story.
One guy (B) who didn't want to disappoint anyone when he need help.
When A called him to get things from an event, he say yes, left all his work undone and went in search of things that A needed.
Never do A know that B only have $35 in his pocket and don't have his card with him. When he accept this task, he didn't even say anything and go and proceed with his instruction. He went off his office and went to alexandra village to find things that is within the budget and was no available. After that he hop onto a bus again and went to Bukit Merah Central where go to Fairprice to buy the items. He brought all the food items he was instructed. But the ice cream sccope just too expensive. It is definately going out of budget and out of question for his wallet at that moment.
He really think a thousand and one ways to try to get this resolved.
At the end he ran over to Outram to get a cheaper sccope for the event. But there is only 3 sccope available and I was already late for half an hour. So I can't help but run back to the location where the event is held.
You know what. By the time B reached, he was half sweating all over the place. He call A to find out whether he is here, he was not. Yet he tell B to be there at 1330hrs. Nevermind.
When I passed over the items to the organisor, they don't even appreciate B 's help yet critics on the item he brought. Even A say the same thing. How would B felt? Isn't they are the one who want to prepare these things?
Frankly speaking, B was not happy throughout the event.
This is don't know the how many times that when he contributed and yet not appreciated and being pin-pointed on things.
B is not going to particpate anymore in this kind of event.
TOTALLY IRRITATED BY THIS!!
And at the end of the day, my claims is not even being returned back to me. What is this???
He was totally taken for granted. Friday, April 3, 2009,
11:55 PM
Time now is 2356hrs.
In another 15hrs time I will be performance with Adult Choir of CHC for the first time.
I am so excited that I can't sleep right now. I really hope that the music will touches everyone's heart and warm everyone in their soul.
Now... There are people asking me why I decided to choose to stay in choir instead of joining the orchestra. Actually there is a few reasons behind it.
Practically I don't own a tuba and I can't fulfil the criteria set by the orchestra.
Personally, I don't feel that I should the choir now as I just join them. That will only make me ministry hopping. That is not my style. When I am committed, I will be committed all the way unless things that are more important in life that I need to attend it first. Furthermore, in choir actually train and tune up my listen when I get back to band. And of course, if you can sing, you can play music. That is the theory that I always believe on.
I am not the type of always giving people a straight no for answer. I always accept explaination and at the correct time voice my stand. But that doesn't mean that you can ride onto me and push me anywhere you want to go. That is simply not me. I believe in freedom expression and mutual respect co-existence.
One of my colleague say this "Christian are selfish people. Most of the time they actually only care about themselves. Some of them even declared that god in other religion is actually faked.. "
I got quite upset when I heard this comment. I started asking myself... Why people make such comment? Yes in Ten Commandments it stated that He is the one and only god. But isn't God actually can appeared in any ways He desired to be? Why must that person do such a condemnation? Why can't there be a mutual respect in each other religion? Whichever you think you can actually keep to your belief but you can't force to believe when they don't.
SO DON'T!!
Being christian we have to even be more understanding to the culture of the world. We have to give certain to respect to all. Beside that God is everywhere around us. God is everyone's God.
I don't know why I talked so about believing. Just felt that to certain extent i want to believe in the principle of life, my values of life and what cherish and hope about.
ok end my blog here. Maybe update again on Sunday after concert.