Tuesday, May 12, 2009,
8:17 PM
Time now is 2018hrs.
Alot of people should have thought that I should at Adult choir practising right now. But they are wrong. I am at home now. And I didn't go for the practice. What does that mean? That mean Saturday and Sunday I will not be participating. In fact I don't foresee going back to the Ministry anymore. Don't ask me why. I wouldn't answer you. I have my own reason. Be it that you all say I am ungrateful or immature. But that place is really not for me.
Perhap I will leave the cell group and the church too... But that doesn't mean I don't love God. Because I know some hyprocites will be saying that I am ungrateful with what God give. Just that after one year, the conclusion is I am not suitable here. I really don't want to force myself with something I don't like to do. Or force for the sake of someone and continue to stay. I want to move on. Whatever I do right now is not what I wanted. I want a change in everything.
So for people from S33, do not waste your breathe on this matter. If you still treat me as a friend, do not come and question me why. I do not wish to see you all. And I mean it. It is not your fault. It is not suitable for me in the first place to stay in the Cell Group. Thanks all of you for your concern but let me be what I am. I am who I am. And don't try to use your theory to change me.
To Sandy and Shannon, please remove my blog link from the S33 website.
Moving forward... I will be going to endure all the nonsense at work. Continued to be looked down on. But i promise I will make them regret on what they have done to me.
And at the same time, building music, work toward my dream as an instructor, musician and composer.
Talking about work, I thought abit. Why should I waste my time and do all these when it is actually not necessary? No need to advertise the company. It is not up to me to do so. Whether the company stay up or closed down, or company promote me or fire me, can I make the decision? I think I dun waste time for that. For what? I
don't earn anything and I still have to see the face of the people in my department.