Thursday, August 28, 2008,
12:10 AM
Today is Friday 15-08-08.
Past one and half week have been very dramatic and sad for me.
After the break and come back to work, I know that it is going to be busy and that I want to change thing that are happening. I really tried my best and learn to cope with changes that is happening at work. Learning to do Import shipment now. Thanks to Andrew that I can have a clear understanding onthe job that I was told to handle and that so far I don't have much doubt.
However, I find it hard to balance Import and Used Car shipment together. During office I am either doing import shipment or making booking for customer, or resolving customer issue or making Telex Release for customer. I totally can't check or do my documentation. Thus I am so stressed. I kept waking up at night again and my head really cramped up. But I don't want to give up. Because I want breakthrough in my work. So no matter what I want to find a solution to resolve it asap.
Second thing that make me sad is... seeing my friend hurt emotionally. her family member passed away and the only thing I could do was to get things that she might need. Perhap my weakness is I don't know how to comfort people when they need it. I can only stand one side and see whether she is fine or not. I am worry about her because she is a friend that I cherished. I didn't see her for some day and I hope that she is alright. I will be praying for her to recover and come back to cg soon.
I always wondered... What is the purpose of my life? When will my life end? And that at the end of the day when I draw my last breath what do I want to achieve? Haha... If the day really come, I want to end alone and give me a chance to recall all my happiest moment in my life. But I guess it is still a long way to go. so I better go and find my life first. lol...
Tomorrow going to have Zone prayer meeting. Better go and sleep first...
Oh Lord, I always wondered is it fate that I have to go things this way... do I have to face thing this way? It is like a curse in my life... Did you purpose put into my life? But why? Will I be the outcasted again at the end of the day? Oh Lord, can my fate be changed?